It’s been a great week, in terms of writing. I know I still haven’t finished this novel, and I should probably save the bragging until I actually finished, but NaNoWriMo has been a major motivator for actually finishing this beast. I had been completely ignoring it for two years. Every time I thought about continuing it, I felt an overwhelming feeling of dread rising in front of me like some sort of massive barrier that I just couldn’t overcome. But here I am, at it again. And goddammit, I’m gonna finish it.
It’s interesting going back into the heads of characters that I created so long ago. When I began this project, and I was so committed to writing every day, they felt really real to me. I knew how they would react in every situation, what their internal monologue sounded like, how they spoke, how they felt about everything… I’m starting to remember it all now. It’s like being reunited with old friends that you haven’t seen in ages. The first few moments are a bit awkward but then they say something that is just so typically them, and you think, “Ah! That’s so you! I remember now!”
I know I’m not doing them justice just yet, and that I’ll have to be really scrutinous with the next draft, to ensure that everything and everyone is really consistent, but that’s fine, that’s what second and third drafts are for. For now, it is enough to say that it feels really good to “see them again”, to get back into the story, to keep propelling these people to where they need to be.